An Afternoon Of Curiosity.

 

A man walking on the road: A photo by Jordan McQueen The photo invokes in me a sense of harmony and isolation in the great unknown.

Another walk! This walk seems to be more important than the last. 

Decisions have effects! effects that affect our future! Sometimes in good ways.

I think about how there is still quality that can make a great change in the world, great quality within everyone.

With every step I take, I seek help in the spiritual world. I pray and enjoy the temperatures of the seasons and the freshness, of the vast world.

In this moment I fall into a world of thoughts. Behind the scenes, my beautiful home awaits. My home! my mancave, my shop and all my tools. My game room and all the joys that come with a level of freedom I have never experienced, but dream for on every walk. The perfect life and it doesn't even cost all that much in real life. 

There is hope within that daydream, hope that will fuel a man's heart for life. Hope that a perfect life and existence will come to pass, or come to stay would even be better. A very pure and rehabilitating energy that come in those moments. Those thoughts are usually expressed in long conversations. And! well! sometimes my videos are short on my YouTube channel, so getting the full story isn't always an option.

I find within myself that quality I spoke of earlier, and this quality should be utilized in day-to-day existence. This quality is rooted in the desire to be better, and learning how to forgive myself and change my ways. The applied lived experience finally coming to fruition, a man starting to become different through recognizing the errors of his ways.

By the time the walk is over, I live out that perfect life.

I embrace that life.

Then I return, knowing my life is perfect in it's own way, but nowhere near the perfect I wish to define. 

 I cry out to the people of the world, in my mind, asking to be forgiven for my behavior, After all I have publicly humiliated myself, cursed, sinned, been racist, abusive, judgemental and unstable. But today I see. . . .

So another day of working hard never hurt anyone, at least I got a bed, food, hot shower and internet.

Happy Holidays Community. . .

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